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You wear the same innocent, harmless smile. Green eyes opened wide, staring with make believe kindness; the countenance that people fall for again and again. I hate this about you, because I know what a liar your face is, and what's behind that smile. I see through you.

Malice, manipulation, control.

My smile, the one you give to me, is different, a secret smile reserved only for when you look at me. I see it. So does everyone else. You know this, but you don't care, do you? Seguchi Tohma, in love with Eiri Yuki? Love? That's such bullshit, Tohma. It's lust. It's always been lust. You fed from my dependency, and I fed off of the unadulterated affection you lavished on me. Young boys loved to be pampered, after all.

I hate these smiles because they're all you ever wear. Why can't I make you hurt like me? It's always the same. Patience and love. Like I'm a little boy, too fragile and naive to know any better; your hands and voice soothe every demon.

They do, and this is also what I hate about you.

No matter what I do, you won't go away; you won't stop smiling at me. You won't stop knocking. You won't stop touching me every chance you get. And I can't fucking stop you because you know me better than myself.