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I wanted to make today normal. I bought a bottle of Tohma's favorite rum, though I don't know why I chose that out of my selection. I grabbed cake, and decided to watch the movie Versus. So, I lay down in bed, turned out the lights, and ate the cake. Washing it down with rum, of course. The movie was good. Nothing like watching hot Japanese men fight on screen when you're full of Tohma's special mix, and cake.

The movie ended. I felt normal. A little squeamish from the drinking, but normal. It was like every other day before he came into my life.

But then the credits rolled.

Editor: Shuichi...

I didn't even see the last name. It just all crashed in around me again. All I could do was drink from the bottle until I was ready to puke.

When the fuck did I turn into this?

And now it feels like every object in the room is breathing with me, swimming in this thick, dense air. I'm just floating above it all.